most of hj libut's family slept at his house last night, lying on the floor and on the couch. we woke up earlier, 5.30 +. yapa will dimandikan, kafankan, di sembahyangkan and then will be buried at tanah perkuburan orang islam at lubok pulau, as it was his last wish. he wanted to be buried there cause most of his family were there. i kissed him for the last time. we'll not see him again but i know he is still around us.

aqil my nephew, asked me when my grandpa kena mandikan, as he called my grandpa katuk. he asked me why katuk didn't open his eyes again. and i answered because he was not here anymore, he gone far away from us now, so aqil jgn cari katuk lagi ah. and he gave bangang face like he didn't understand. i heard more story about my niece and nephew asked about yapa. i know it was hard for them to understand this. why this day came so fast? my grandpa left his cicit before they're big enough to take care of him.

bapa, me, dhirah and eaah went to nenek dut's graveyard afterwards. i acted like i'm okay but actually i'm hungry, i'm restless and i'm dizzy. cause i miss nenek dut, i followed my father to his graveyard. it was raining definitely. sorry to uncu cause we didn't come to babu mas' house for you, you know our conditions right uncu? choc creamy nun mati jumpa pa. haha. back home, i slept for a while. we had tahlil for yapa of course that night.

oh i miss yapa and nenek dut!

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